Confession time…I cringe when I hear someone say things like:
“I know God’s given me the victory” or “God didn’t bring me here to fail”.
Probably because I’ve had those same thoughts in the past, I’ve not said those things because I’m not that bold, but I’ve had the thoughts.
And in my life, I discovered that my definition of “victory” and God’s definition of “victory” are often times very different. There have been times that God has indeed arranged circumstances that set me up for what most people would term “failure”, all the while working huge change for good in my heart.
But the other day in my Bible study, I was reading 1 Samuel about David and Goliath. Most everyone has heard that story a thousand times, but as I read David’s strong faith filled words, “All those gathered will know that it’s not by sword or spear that the Lord saves; for the battle is the Lord’s…” and pictured David on the brink of his fight: “As the Philistine moved closer to attack him, David ran quickly toward the battle line…” I asked myself… When was the last time I ran quickly into a battle? Am I missing something? Does God want me to be a bit bolder when it comes to the giants in my life?
So I’ve turned that thought over and over in my mind asking God to open my eyes to the truth He wants me to see.
Here’s what I think He might be saying…before I can run into the battle with the confidence that God’s going to fight and win that battle, I have to really know the giant.
Give me a second to explain…
Right now, my knee-jerk reaction to the question: What’s the giant in your life, would be … how I feel physically. I’d like God to fight that battle and destroy that issue (giant) in my life. I’d like to have the energy I used to have. Because, (Bear with me for a moment) after searching for what was wrong with me for 2 years and finally getting the Celiac diagnosis, I expected to be full of energy and feel better than I used to…that’s what lots of people with Celiac Disease say.
But it’s not been quite that way with me.
After iron infusions last summer, I was convinced my energy would come back…although I felt a little better, still I was not close to feeling normal.
After a particularly confrontational appointment with my Rheumatologist a couple of months ago, I left with a Sjorgen’s Syndrome diagnosis (another auto-immune disease) and a prescription for a mediation that will hopefully calm down my overactive immune system.
It’s too soon to tell if the medicine will help out my energy level but I’m realizing my energy level may not be the issue.
Perhaps my inability to move with graceful acceptance from one season of my life into another is my real battle. Perhaps it’s the stubbornness in me that is having a hard time letting go of other things that could be sapping me of energy…things like sugar and processed foods.
Or maybe my giant is both of those things.
Anyhoo, I’m intentionally turning my focus off of how I feel physically and asking God to give me the courage to run into the battle with the real giant in my life. And I’m trusting…that the battle belongs to Him.
Is there a giant in your life right now? Prayers for those of you who may be in a battle…
(Sorry for being late on posting…we had a surprise early start date on our construction project in the den-posted about that HERE...I’ll update in the next day or two, you wouldn’t believe the upheaval around here!)