It’s mid-fall, it’s inevitable right? This morning in Metro Atlanta the temps dipped into the mid-thirties and we had our first glimpse of winter.
While letting go of summer is not a problem for me, saying goodbye to autumn is a different story. This morning, coffee in hand and fire flickering in the fireplace, I decided not to go on my walk. Because I’m not ready to bundle up. Not ready to see my breath. Not ready to have my toes go numb. Not ready for change.
I’m that way about life changes too. Fantastically stubborn.
I don’t mind the slow changes. The kinder, gentler changes, like chilly autumn nights and afternoon skies that shine pristine blue hinting of things to come. Those changes I welcome.
But the changes that sweep in and threaten my serenity, well those trigger a baton down the hatches mentality in me.
That kind of change has blown through our family recently.
And it’s made me want to fold up tight emotionally.
That’s what I was thinking about this morning when I went to get dressed and felt Ollie-the-pups eyes boring into me.
I don’t care if it’s cold, he seemed to say. Let’s walk anyway. Please.
I’m a sucker for my pups.
Bundled up, me in my scarf and him in his sissy sweater, we left the warmth of the house. Taking a deep breath of cold fresh air for the first time since last February, felt …cleansing. Still unconvinced I wanted to be outside I decided to rain on Ollie’s parade:
It’s not so bad, but we aren’t going far Oliver.
Nose to the ground and tail wagging, he trotted on, oblivious to my sour mood.
We passed house after house, with every step I considered turning around…but for some reason, I kept going. The world looked a little different this morning. Delicate frost tipped blades of grass glistened in first sunlight. Red and yellow leaves lay scattered on the curb like Someone put them there on purpose. Yes. My world had changed a bit over night, but it turns out there’s beauty here too.
Change is inevitable and walking into it with an open heart is sometimes the only way to see the beauty.
Happy Sunday my friends