It’s officially the Christmas season.
I’ve been working on decorations and Christmas projects for some time .Are you busy decorating and wrapping and planning?
The fall season was really busy for me, busier than normal. Maybe that’s why, at some point a few weeks ago when I drug the first of the Christmas decorations up from the basement I immediately hit a wall. Before one ornament was unpacked, before one garland was hung…I was done.
Honestly, it scared me because if there’s one thing I can count on in my life is the joy that I feel when I’m expressing creativity. Especially at Christmas. Unpacking those decorations every year fills me with nostalgia and fuels my creative process.
Not this year though and I couldn’t figure out what was wrong.
A couple of weeks ago, I heard Ann Voskamp say:
“I can only do a few things well…”
Have you ever had something that was all consuming, took all of your emotional energy, the majority of your time all the while sapping your creativity?
Well, that’s what blogging turned into this year.
I started in January 2013 with the goal of growing my blog and to finally make a little money with it. That was my focus. I’m not apologizing for that because there’s nothing wrong with wanting to reach more people and to make money on something that takes 50-70 hours a week.
But as 2013 wanes I see the toll that focus has taken on me.
Truth be told, I need whitespace. Downtime. Margins.
I can not fill every waking hour with something work related , because when I do my creativity dries up and I go through my days like a robot.
When I push through and work through my much needed downtime, my relationships suffer and guilt poisons serenity.
When I have no margins in my schedule, no extra time to serve my family, or catch up with a friend on the phone, or sit on the floor and play the afternoon away with my granddaughter… my heart aches…
Truth: I can only do a few things well.
Which begs the question, what do I want to do well?
I asked myself this just the other day and the answer came easy…
I want to love well.
Love God. Love my precious family and friends. And somehow across the miles , I want to find ways to love you my sweet online friends.
But how exactly do I do this?
So, as 2013 comes to a glorious end amidst Christmas carols and twinkling lights and cozy nights by the fire, this is what I’m asking God.
What does it look like for me to love well?
I’d love to hear your wisdom on doing a few things well…especially during the holiday season , how do you live your priorities?
Oh…and about that Christmas decorating, I have been adding a few touches here and there but this year, I’m feeling most inspired when I have a sweet granddaughter in my lap or when I’m sitting by the fire talking to The Husband.
Sending love my friends~