If you had only 30 days to live what would you change?
I read that question the other day in a book review and time slowed.
I knew it was a God-moment.
Not that He was telling me that I only had 30 days to live.
But I believe He was opening my eyes to the unimportant in my life. How often I ask God to help me prioritize my days so I’m focused on what matters. This little question pulled the thousand things swirling around my head on my mental to-do list into a straight and narrow line.
It instantly reminded me of the essence of my life.
Because in my tiny life, Unimportant is loud and gets all my attention.
And Essence is a whisper and too often gets pushed aside.
The first thing I thought of was time spent online.
Don’t get me wrong, you know I love my connections with my online friends. But if I’m not careful I can be online all the time. There’s so much opportunity…my phone, the computer, the iPad.
For instance… know sitting with The Husband on the couch and being on my computer the whole time. I’m not really in the moment with him, even if we’re watching a movie together, we aren’t “in” the movie. I’m multi-tasking. Half of me is off in cyber-land somewhere. He laughs at something in the movie and looks over to see my reaction:
“What? Why are you looking at me like that”? Because I’m not paying attention, I missed it.
If I knew my days were numbered (and after all, they are), would I give only a fraction of me to our time together?
Then I thought of my priority list. Every week that “to-do” list. How quickly the people I love shoot to the top when I look at the list through the “my days are numbered” filter.
Next…my pettiness. Those things that get on my very last nerve and trigger a knee-jerk reaction of either anger or sarcasm.
How completely unimportant those annoyances look through my filter.
How consumingly important the people behind those annoyances become.
I could go on and on because there are so many loud unimportant things in my life that instantly went silent.
I asked The Husband this question and he got so annoyed, “It’s not possible to think past quitting my job and spending time with you and the kids. The question is frustrating”
So I asked him what he’d eliminate and what he’d add if he couldn’t change the big things like work and the bank account.
“Just let the question take you to your essence, let it shine a light on the time-thieves and the emotional-drains in your life…”
What about you, if the question doesn’t annoy you…what would you change if you had only 30 days to live, what would you change?
~I pray you will have a weekend where your essence sings loud and gets all your attention~