(Taken January 2011)
I get sentimental as one year fades gloriously into the next, maybe it because of my issues with moving on and letting go. Whatever the reason, in the spirit of closure, every December I like to set aside time to think about what God’s been up to over the past 12 months.
For weeks now, I’ve been going back through my prayer journal month by month and making notes about the things I see in those pages. This is one of the many benefits of keeping a prayer journal, I can look back through those pages filled with my deepest longings, joys, burdens and questions, and see God’s hand.
As always, there were many seemingly random incidents and lots of hit and run encounters, that made little sense at the time. But looking back, with a bit of perspective, I can see common threads running through my days. The quiet days, the days that were full of laughter and other days that were spent in tears, all of them connected. And of course, nothing was random. No encounter was truly a hit and run, and even a loss, which to me came out of nowhere, was not a surprise to God. Although my view of 2011 has almost no distance, even from here, I can see that He’s been faithful to teach me more about believing and giving thanks.
Always these past months, as I journaled, I came back to those two things: “do you believe?” And, “count your gifts”.
Do I believe that nothing comes to me that isn’t first filtered through His fingers? Then give thanks in all things…
Do I believe that He has a plan even when I can’t see it? Then give thanks for light to see just the next step.
Do I believe He can’t stop pouring out His love? Then look around you & see His love in even the smallest details… and thank Him.
“Believe” was my one-little-word for 2011 and I’m humbled at the tiny shift in my perspective. Don’t get me wrong guys, one bulls-eye tragedy and I could quickly lose that perspective and turn into a screaming-angry at God lunatic. But for these past months God’s been patiently running the thread of belief through all my laughter and all my tears.
And I’ve no doubt that God put this book in my hands last January because He knew that my lessons in belief would go hand in hand with my lessons in gratitude.
And it brings me to my knees…His hand in my life.
I’m still counting gifts… #1062-for helping me to see the common threads running through these past months~
Do you take some time at the close of the year to reflect? If so, I’d love to hear about your process…
~Prayers for a peace-filled last week of 2011 my friends~