Picking one-word for the new year is something I’ve been doing for years.
One little word to focus on through four seasons. Year after year those one-little-words have opened my eyes to so many life lessons.
I start asking God to show me a word around October. A couple of months ago, when I started that process of asking for my one word and listening for His leading, I did get a word. But I didn’t like it.
I loved my word for 2013…abide. I mean could there be a more beautiful word? It conjured up a feeling of: “just – be”. When I plucked that word out of my mental sky all those months ago, I felt I was in for a year full of serenity as I connected to my Maker and remained.
But here’s what I learned in 2013 about the word abide. Abiding takes work. Abiding isn’t easy (at least for me). Abiding is unnatural, especially in today’s world of pushing to make the next deadline and striving to meet the next goal. As a matter of fact sweet friends, as I looked back over 2013 one thing was crystal clear…
I learned how NOT to abide.
I should issue an alert…I’m going to get brutally honest for a minute peeps…
By year’s end, I found myself burned out with not an ounce of art left in me. You know what I mean by art…inspiration, creativity, being in the zone where you find beauty in everything. There was none of that. I was empty. In wondering why, I looked back over my prayer journal reality dawned. Page after page there was angst. Day after day I was striving. Situation after situation I felt the burden of failure squeezing the breath out of me.
Two surface issues seem to be to blame. First, I focused on growing my blog in 2013. Pushed and worked so hard only to feel very much like a failure constantly.
Next, and this is very personal…but if you’ve been hanging out with me you know I’m compelled to be honest with you guys…I gained 20lbs in 10 months.
My doctor put my on a medication for issues I was having with menopause. (TMI? Sorry.) A side effect of the medicine was weight gain…good gravy they weren’t kidding. I came off the medicine in May and have been struggling to lose that weight ever since. I’ve been trying to get back into the habit of exercising (which I let go of in 2013) and eating more healthy.
I could go on and on about the failures I’ve experienced with both of these issues, but I won’t. I’ll just say that I learned, in 2013, how NOT to abide.
I’m sorry this has been a bit negative guys, but I wanted to be honest. The Husband and I always take time in the week between Christmas and New Year’s to look back over the previous year and look forward into the new. A few days ago, when talking about my one-word of 2013, abide, he said:
“God’s not done teaching you about that word, maybe with your personality learning to abide is going to take more time”
It was exactly what I had been thinking.
I really don’t like the idea of taking a word and carrying it over into the new year but The Husband’s right…there’s so much more for me to learn about the word abide, so I’m tip toeing into 2014 hand in hand with my one-word friend from last year…
Thanks for listening my sweet sweet friends. You mean so much to me and I appreciate you more than you know…
Do you pick a word for the new year? Please share it with me and if you have a minute tell me why you picked your word!