Today is cold and gray. Just what you’d expect from winter. I opened my shutters trying to brighten up the house and my mood but it didn’t work. So much noise in my head today, a mix of worries, a sense of being far-behind, and to top it off there was that familiar background hum of failure.
Pausing to practice gratitude, I whispered thanks for the warmth of my home, the pups snuggled sleeping in the den, my…
It was about that time that my mind wandered off course. Feeling frustrated I prayed, “am I destined to feel blue today Father? Because really, I’m trying but nothing is working…”
Getting up off my knees I searched my memory for a song to sing, something that might lift my heavy heart. Nothing. I could think of not even one song.
Turn on music
I sulked toward the remote before the thought exited my brain. I mean it seemed like a good idea since I couldn’t think of anything constructive. Turning on Pandora I found my Chris Tomlin channel and went about my morning chores. Somewhere about the third song, as I folded warm towels I started to sing along. A little later, with a basket overfull of clean laundry a song came on and the words stopped me and took my breath…
Star of the morning
Light of salvation
God of all mysteries
Lord of the universe
Feeling so small I bowed again to worship…
Singing, “Blessing and honor and glory and power forever to our God.
By the time I got back to putting away that laundry my heart was full of gratitude. The music stayed on that afternoon and I caught myself wiping an occasional tear as thanksgiving just flowed out of me.
Sometimes in the fight for focus I need a little something extra.
How do you keep your focus fixed on Jesus?
Remember friends, I’m in snowy Breckenridge this week, zip over to facebook or email me if you need me. xo