I’m still in pretty deep with my ginormous DIY project…
But I wanted serenity today. And if I show you very much of this project and you’re prone to nervousness, you’ll have a breakdown.
On Monday after getting up around 3:00am I looked at my surroundings and seriously contemplated sitting down and having a hysterical cry. But there was nowhere to sit, every piece of furniture in the den was taken with pictures, lamps, books, oh and 4 dogs. The chaos in my outside world had insidiously seeped into me. But honestly, there’s no turning back at this point so I breathed deep, grabbed my new best friend (The Paintbrush) and focused on doing the next right thing. Painting my fireplace.
While I was slathering paint on the thirsty brick I wondered…is there a secret to having serenity in the midst of chaos?
I’ve lived through a lot of chaos. Big things like my little brother’s battle with cancer and losing my mother threw my life into chaos for such a long time. Grief does that. More recently, the unplanned pregnancy of my unmarried daughter, Emma, turned my world upside down. On and on my mind thumbed through circumstance after circumstance that threw my life out of serenity.
As I thought about it I realized that not all chaos is huge and heavy. Sometimes really good and exciting events have thrown my world into chaos. There were a few weddings and a job change or two for The Husband. There were remodels in days gone by that took us out of normality for weeks but in the end were bliss. (Remind me to tell you about the time I mentioned to The Husband how fun it’d be if “this” wall in the den were torn down only to come home from a shopping trip later that SAME day to find the wall gone…)
During some of these times I’ve maintained a core of serenity, but more times than not, I’ve lost it.
Wish I had better coping skills…
Kneeling there in front of my fireplace thinking about these things and methodically brushing on creamy paint, something shifted.
I realized I felt something akin to peace. Something like serenity. Maybe I was doing the answer to my question…is there a secret to having serenity in the midst of chaos?
Maybe the secret is, do the next right thing.
Sometimes the next right thing may be taking some time to grieve. To cry. To remember. Other times the next right thing may be saying I love you or I forgive you.
But for today, once again, my next right thing involves The Paintbrush.
And look who came to visit me yesterday…sigh.
She brings love and joy and giggles and smooches…
~No matter what’s going on, when Ellie’s around, all is right with the world~
Sending you love~
You know where to find me today…doing the next right thing…
Linking to Chatting at the Sky’s ~ Tuesday’s Unwrapped