“All appears to change when we change.”
The Husband and I have been visiting the Florida panhandle every summer since we got married 26 years ago. We’ve stayed at several places over the years but our favorite by far, is Rosemary Beach.
Last week,for the seventh year, we said good bye to summer at Rosemary. Although we stay in a beach house that isn’t ours, Rosemary feels like home to us, it’s part of our story. The beach, the restaurants, the flicker of gas lanterns over every front door…the same every year.
But this year felt different.
Walking along the shore under gray clouds pregnant with rain, we talked, The Husband and I, about years past and how time flies. We’re getting older after all and things are changing.
“There’s a lot about getting older that bothers me” I confessed. “But there are some good things too. Like for the first time at the beach, I’m completely unconcerned about my looks.”
He glanced at me suspicious, “is this a trap? I’m afraid to respond”.
It wasn’t a trap. It was in fact a miracle. In years past lounging on the beach or at the pool was sometimes less than relaxing. Instead of enjoying the sand, the sun and my family, in my mind, I was in an all-out battle. Between berating myself for the way I looked, comparing myself with other women and planning my next drastic diet, I had no focus left for enjoying the moment.
By the time I left the beach I could hardly wait until autumn when I could wear layers!
But not this year. At fifty-one, I finally have a semblance of serenity in the body God gave me. I was blissfully unaware of myself which made every other detail and every other person come into sharp focus. This year it was easy to be fully present in every moment.
I’ve prayed for this thousands of times throughout my life but it was worth the wait.
~My Sweet Friends, I so hope you don’t think less of me hearing of my petty struggle with body image~Just keeping it real as always~
Is there a struggle that you’ve prayed over and over about? Hang on dear ones, your answer will come.